Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Re-couping before the whole merry shabang

Well Hello!

I've been away from regular life for a while--still trying to regain my sanity after taking on far too many obligations and fun things that I had a hard time resisting. So, I've been taking many deep breaths and giving myself many self-talks while slowly checking off my list of to-do's BEFORE the week of Christmas. We have quite a few family members coming to our home that week so I am prepping myself for a busy couple of weeks of cleaning, cooking, entertaining, and enjoying the festivities. I am determined to have a Merry Christmas and ring the New Year re-couped and refreshed.

Speaking of, I'm about to head out the door for a massage! There is nothing like a relaxing massage to help care for the soul, and I am so happy that Husband understands where I am coming from when I tell him I need a break. He even said he'll make dinner. Have I ever told you what a good cook he is? I think I might sneak to the bookstore, too, and indulge myself in a tall cup of joe and pick up my latest book club read, Spilling Clarence.

Have a nice night!

cbm

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Saturday, November 28, 2009

Redemption Writing

Two weeks ago, I made a conscious decision to slow down, take a breather, and stop straining to fit everything into my schedule--hence the reason you haven't heard from me in a bit. Although I feel I thrive most when I am ambitious and fill my life with ALL the things I love, there comes a point when too much is too much, and either a) not a lot is getting accomplished anymore or b) things that shouldn't be on the back burner are there-- simmering.

How nice it has been to relax and not get down on myself for not being able to do it all, 100%, because really, I can't. However, my life continues in its fullness, but not in vain, instead, quite the opposite.

Last Saturday, I attended a memoir writing workshop at a little place called Writers' Dojo, in Portland, Or. It is a cozy open place to meet with other writers, and where writers come to share their ideas on the craft. There is also another building where writers can rent a space to use as a writing office. It makes for a nice little community.

I signed up for the workshop, because after having attended Wordstock, I realized that workshops are invaluable. There is nothing like attending a workshop to re-fuel the fire. I was especially interested in this workshop's writer, Kerry Cohen, a Portland based writer, and author of the memoir, Loose Girl: A Memoir of Promiscuity, and two other young adult novels.

Maybe I haven't quite relayed what I've been up to yet, but I am in the beginning stages of writing a memoir book proposal that I hope to have finished and into the hands of an agent before the Spring. When I found this workshop and saw that Cohen would be teaching, she struck me as a valuable teacher, as her work is geared toward the audience that I, too, have in mind while I write. And like her memoir, mine takes place during the same teenage years, and rings a similar tune of unraveling much too young. I know, I'm being vague?

Anyway, the workshop went well. It began with each of us writing a secret that we've never shared. Then she had us read them aloud! "This is what writing a memoir is like," she said. Initially, as I shared, I was shaking in my hands and in my voice, but by the end of the three hour workshop, I was steady and confident.

Memoir writing is therapeutic, and is a large part of why I am writing what I write. The other part of why I am writing such intimate recollections is that while I was young and as life happened, I didn't understand any of it, so I write with hopes that I can lend some direction and experience to those who are enduring a similar experience, and sadly, there are many.

At the end of the workshop, I spoke with Kerry for a moment to thank her for the class and asked if I could email her in the future. She told me that she was interested in my story and offered to be a mentor to me during my writing process. "Yes! Yes!" I said. "I would love and appreciate that!"

I left the workshop ecstatic that I'd been offered a mentorship, and with a woman who very much knows and relates with stories like mine. I knew that I couldn't pass up her class, and now I know more why. I have a feeling that she just might be an integral part in me bringing my raw truth to the page, and finding redemption in an experience that has held me captive over the years.

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Thursday, November 12, 2009

Does Anyone Know Where November's Gone?


I've just been minding my business, writing my tail off, chasing kids, keeping house, darting to studies, reading relentlessly, trying new recipes, and mostly enjoying life and all that it wants to throw my way. But, really? Is that any reason for it to already be mid-November? And I have sneaking suspicion that another winter of snow drifts and shut-down shops is on its way. Seems here in the NW we haven't grasped the reality that we, too, can get snow more than every few years, and we should know how to manage. But enough snow-talk, I can't even begin to think about Thanksgiving. Too much on my plate already, and it's not food.

Blessings to you from the rainy NW!

-CBM

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

A fierce unrest

seethes at the core…


it was the


eager wish to soar.


-Don Marquis



Friday, November 6, 2009

A Rainy & Lovely Weekend Ahead!

Good Morning!

What are you up to this weekend?

I'll start mine this morning with a trip to the gym to get my cycle on. I also have plans for a long run tomorrow--that is if I am not washed away by the rain!

Other fun weekend events & tid-bits:

My friends Hayden & Jenni are getting married today! I am so excited for them! I am also excited to see an old best friend from junior high/high school who I haven't seen since. Her and I share many memories, and in fact, I've been thinking of her a lot as I've been writing lately. What I am currently working on has a lot to do with our friendship. I may divulge more on this later...

Tomorrow, I plan to get canning. I've got a big bowl full of apples from my in-law's tree and I can't delay!

Also, I plan to get cozy on my over sized papazan and continue reading The Bean Trees by Barbara Kingsolver, AND drop a few articles in the mail to the others who are participating in Candace's 30 Days of Mail Swap. Can't wait to check my mail box today! Isn't it so fun to receive mail??


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Wednesday, November 4, 2009

11-23-09



I am stoked Rhianna's new album is coming out this month! Her last album Good Girl Gone Bad used to accompany my every workout and still does when I need an immediate pump-up. I don't listen to any R&B other than this album--I left the majority of that taste in music in junior high school, but can't turn away when I hear this girl sing.

Laurie Sandell, Glamour magazine writer and a teacher that I had at Wordstock last month, just revealed on her blog that her secret interview last month was actually with Rhianna! Check out the article here. It's great to see how far Rhianna's come.

I have to admit that after her incident with Chris Brown last February, I felt her album was tainted. I was feeling sad and guilty that I felt that way, especially about an artist that I love so much. I had such feelings especially when I'd listen to tracks like Take a Bow, that had me wondering how something could happen to such a strong, bold woman. The harsh reality, though, is that it happens to women strong and bold. Although, image is everything in the media, Rhianna's situation is an important reminder that even hollywood can't escape the unfortunate challenges that many face, and there is no excuse for violence. Now, Rhianna speaks for so many--who haven't yet spoken.

Because her music ROCKS,

and because she's as STRONG as her music sounds,

here's to RHIANNA and her new album and my new work-out tracks!

Saturday, October 24, 2009

For All You Runners Out There...Hurry!


This morning I read that today is The Human Race 2009 10k put on by Nike. You can race from anywhere in the world, anytime you want, between 10/24/09 (12:00am) to 10/24/09 (11:59pm).

My brother, Marc and I headed to Lacamas Lake this morning and ran our 6.2 miles. This "race" was a great incentive to begin those longer runs that I was talking about. And for a guy who's never run that far before, my bro did GREAT and finished feeling awesome!

Hurry, get out there and do it before the clock strikes midnight!

p.s. The link above looks like a great place to log runs.

Friday, October 23, 2009

Tears, Fire & Oxygen

I had a near meltdown yesterday. In fact, it probably was considered a meltdown by my dear Husband who talked me through, as I took deep breaths and blinked my eyes as to not allow them to well up into puddles.

Passion can be a force of contradictory measure. It can catapult you onto a blazing trail of infinite possibility or become so over-stimulating that it stops you dead in your tracks with the dear-in-the-headlights sort if fear that none of it will be brought to fruition or be expended appropriately.

Because passion comes from the soul, any work derived from such a place, is considered by many to be soul work. So when dealing with such work and feeling that 100% is not being given to the cause, it can bring moments of upheaval and panic that only near-meltdowns seem to remedy and Husbands and friends or family members can encourage through. Yesterday, my Husband did so with tender-boldness.

Husband is known for being matter-of-fact, and when I asked for nickname ideas for him in an earlier post, I received a fitting suggestion--Mr. Go Big or Go Home. I believe I actually received two votes for this one. I can always count on him to offer up his opinion and I have learned to value his constructive criticism. He's not one to sugar-coat just because he loves you, in fact, because he loves you so, he'll tell you the truth if he feels you'll be better off for it, even if it hurts a little. For example, the time when we first got together and he told me I was acting like a brat. Funny enough, I found myself amusingly attracted to his care-free bluntness. It was nice to have someone tell me to check myself, and remind me that I wasn't the only person living on earth. It was shortly after that that I knew I had found my perfect match and someone who was going to help me be better and push me further in life than I ever thought I could go.

So, yesterday during my meltdown, Mr. Go Big or Go Home, listened to my brief scenario of frustrations and demanded that I pick up the pieces. "I've seen that fire blazing under your @$$ since Tim Perrin emailed you a few months ago, and you've brought your expectations to a new level," he said. "Don't go dropping everything you have ever hoped for, now, because I've told all my friends--my wife's a writer, and we're not in this to look like idiots."--maybe idiots wasn't the exact word...I'm improvising here. All in all, he knocked some sense into me in that no-b.s. sort of way that I love him for. Not because his friends really care if I ever write a thing, but because he knows that to live my life fulfilled, I must write.

He also reminded me that when a fire rages, there is no denying it the oxygen to burn. Time and care are just a few of the necessities that will keep it carefully maintained and flourishing in the night; the light continually providing warmth to the soul.

I've also realized that when you're dealing with grand aspirations and the makings of dreams, life and choices appear much more fragile than before. It reminds me of the preface to The Alchemist when Paulo Cohelo talks about the main reasons why people don't seek out their dreams. It's because they are afraid to lose them, he says. I have to ask, what's a dream really worth if you don't chase it down, hold it tightly and keep warm by the fire? And, if you can't feel the fire, you're either chasing the wrong "dream" or you're standing in the ashes.

With a little TLC and oxygen you can feel that fire burn, and friend, its warmth--is undeniable.


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Thursday, October 22, 2009

Reading List/Following Tutorial

Good Morning Friends!

I've spoken with a few friends and family who don't take advantage of or know what the "reading list" option is in their blogger account. Inserting your favorite blogs into the reading list is a great way to keep track of your favorites and get updates on new posts. It's cool for bloggers too, to see who is interested in their blog. As a blogger who loves her readers and to interact with readers, I encourage you to show your face and Follow! Personally, my reading list is awesome and it's part of my morning ritual. It's like reading your own daily newspaper--except way more creative, fun & beautiful.

If you don't have a Blogger account and if the blog that you read has a "follow" link you can become a follower of that blog by clicking on follow and following the prompts. Gmail/Google will post updates from those blogs in your account.

If you have a Blogger account, here is what you do--

To set up your reading List:

1. Click on your dashboard.
2. You will see a section for "reading list."
3. Under this section you can choose to "add" or "manage."
4. Choose "add" to add your favorite blogs to your reading list. It will look like this:


5. In a separate window find the blog that you want to follow and copy the URL (web address in the Internet browser). You do this by right-clicking the link in the browser and choosing copy.
6. Click back to your Blogger "Add" window and insert the link for the blog that you would like to add to your reading list. You insert by clicking on the add spot and right clicking and choosing paste. *Make sure it is the actual URL without any additions. For instance, http://www.cbmccully.blogspot.com/ not www.cbmccully.blogspot.com/2009/10/woah.html. The first link is the all encompassing link and will take you to the home page for the blog. The second link will only take you to the specific "Woah" post.
7. Click save.
8. Decide whether or not you will follow the blog publicly--which bloggers love to see, or follow anonymously. Then you will begin to receive all updated posts from that blog.


Then your reading list will look something like this:

All images taken from Google images.

To remove/change a blog on your reading list:

1. Click the manage option in the reading list section.
2. Click the "setting" option under the blog that you'd like to remove/or change.
3. On the far left you can choose to delete a blog. In this same spot you can also change whether or not you would like to follow publicly or anonymously.

Have fun with your reading list! Hope this was helpful!

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Woah.

Have you ever found yourself alone in the kitchen, waiting for your coffee to re-heat and shaking your assets? I hadn't either until about five minutes ago, and I am without any conscious reason for it. Music wasn't it--because there was none.

Guess I'm just feeling good today, and that's good enough for me.

You should try it.

Letting loose never hurt anybody.
xo, C